I've discovered the most challenging part of being a wife and mother is finding balance. Most days it's a struggle to keep just one of the areas of my life in balance. It's a constant readjusting. I started to feel like I was failing more than I was succeeding.
Keep a clean house, but spend time with your children.
Make healthy meals, but make them taste good.
Don't dress like you just got out of bed, but don't dress to make other men stumble.
Spend time teaching your children, but let them be kids too.
Budget wisely, but splurge on the important stuff.
Protect your kids, but let them make mistakes.
Exercise, but take time to rest.
Be stern, but be gentle.
Love others, but don't let them take advantage of you.
Have great friends, but spend time alone too.
Be helpful, but don't get overextended.
Be confident in who you are, but be willing to change.
Accept that the Lord is God and He died for you, but....hmmm. I'm glad there's no "but" to salvation. That's all that really matters. Life's pressures are mostly imposed by ourselves or others, not God. Does he want me to be a good wife and a good mother? Of course He does. He desires the best for me and my family. Does he care that I haven't cleaned behind the fridge in two years? Probably not.
Now that Brian's mom has passed, I am replaying our conversations, and cherishing them even more. When they came to visit this past January I told her that I didn't have a chance to clean as much as I wanted. She just smiled and said, "Look...you can have a clean house or you can spend time with your kids. You can't have both. Each day is a choice. Some days you will choose to clean. Some days you will sit on the floor and play with Barbies. As a grandmother, I am glad that your house isn't spotless because it means you're spending time with my granddaughters." She went on to tell me that there will come a time when your house stays too clean and you miss the mess. Then she said the kids move back in, along with the grandkids and you miss the clean. "It all evens out eventually."
Today, I'm striving for a new balance; one that doesn't leave me feeling guilty at the end; a balance that reminds me not to take things too seriously because, "It all evens out eventually."
